All of a sudden, my world turned into deep grey, just like the one in your eyes. This time I really don't know what I should say...

You just lied on that cold steel bed, with your eyes closed, very peacefully, but I know you were not sleep. Were your just fell asleep? We could'n make ourselves to believe that, though I could still feel the warmth, I could feel its draining. You lied there, so peacefully, motionless. Should I tell myself that you've left us forever? I did. But my mind were just a mess.

Should I blame the driver? I guess no. After all, who ever would predict that you would come across that road suddenly? Plus, you were so tiny for them to see.

Then, I guess it's just fate? But, dear God, only 22 months? Aren't you just too mean even for a dog?

May be you knew that I'm going to leave you, so you just left me first? How cruel you... For a very long time, you were the only reason that I'm urged to go home. What now?

People say that you were just a dog, and we can always get another one. Yes. I have to move on, and it is this very fact that I have to live even without you and as time goes by you will be subsitute by another adorable one just like you that tortured me. You were so specital, but perhaps only mom and I view you as family...and to us, losing you means losing a cherished family member, it's like that we would never be cheerful again.

And only those who ever had been in my situation, could understand.

 

Two days have passed. My mind is still reeling from the tragedy psychologically.

I have to go home, 'Cause I don't wanna break mom's heart.

It is when I saw this little gorgeous one. She resembles you, really. You've got the same color, same eyes, same nose, same ear, except hers is smaller than yours. She's a girl, of course. They say she will not be so nauty as you. Well, yes, she's rather quiet, maybe it's because she's a girl or just being unfamiliar to here. Goshi she really resembles you. Everytime I saw her, I saw you, and it feels awaful, the emptyness.

She didn't recognize her name yet, we called her YoYo, because you used to be addicted in yogurt, and mom wants her to be carefree(悠) and good(优). Wow, too much for a name, right? I didn't think twice to call you luca the first time ever I saw your face...You were a luca, whatever...

I'm sorry for this, but you understand that we cannot live without you even for one day. It's much better to think about while having her accompanied than just stare into an empty house. She's clever, but thin, very thin, but don't worry, you know how we spoil our pet. 

She's lucky that we got her, because of you.

 

My dear luca, I did miss you, miss you so much, but the only thing I can do is to live by it, may you be happy like before wherever you are.

You are always my precious luca, love you.

＂大四了，一把年纪了，还要编程＂

这大概是最近听到最让我郁闷的话了

逃课一个月之后，回到教室发现什么也听不懂

这下真正感受到艰辛了

都折腾了快一个下午了，这破网页咋还调不好涅～！

唉，谁让我去年这会儿在法国开心呢，不然也不会沦落到这地步阿

该死的ＷＥＢ程序设计，偶和你拼了！！！

 

    把shopping叫成血拼的人真是太有才了~~

    400-200/400-190/刷卡送40。。。想必对所有MM都是个诱惑吧？

    就是在这种诱惑之下，短短几天光顾杭城各大商场N次，而且没有一次空手而归，只是荷包越来越空，信用卡也刷爆了：/

    不得不感叹下Xiaolin的marketing，绝对和KM有得一拼，哈哈，要不是她提醒，我也没意识到原来KM还会游说女生买衣服，记得当时在法国就是因为KM不停的说好看才会试那件背带裙，嘿嘿

    清醒之后，还是多少会有点后悔

    比如，怎么买的都是秋装呢，只好期待天气快点转凉了；还有，最后买的那件衣服，估计要减肥才能穿出去了，哭！！！

 

    黄金周，虽然是血拼的黄金时间，但绝对不是游山玩水的好日子

    风景还是那样美，只是不知道被挤在各色人群中还有没有欣赏的心情，反正偶是没了~不过，舍命陪君子嘛，厄，应该是姐妹~

 

    玩了这么多天，选校的事还是没搞定，唉，效率啊效率，后面几天要乖乖在家了：P

    对了，顺便祝贺lulu比我早10天22岁，哈哈哈，生日快乐&心想事成